death comes a knocking

okay, so 2 people i know have died this month, one a suicide, one not sure, and a total of about 8 suicides countywide.  i hate this, knowing that there wasn't a thing i could do..............the one we aren't sure about was hit by a pick-up truck and 3 other vehicles............just horrific..........sometimes i wish i had a mindless job, like back when i worked at the plastic factory....................life can change in a split second.....and change forever............i just hope nothing happens and i don't die before i get some quality time with my girls.........