inside my head

so okay, time to update this thing........right at the moment the east coast is braceing for hurricane Irene, yesterday the storm was 800 miles across!!!  damn!  they are calling it a possible 100 year event, that's scarey..........Amy Winehouse died peacefully, in her sleep at her Camden home.........no drugs in her system.........she also suffered from an eating disorder............has had bad health...........has been clean from drugs for 3 years, was fighting her demon, alcohol...........so, in that vein, i think her body just couldn't take any more...........it's part of recovery, it's the chance you take when you become an addict........i'm still here, in prescott, leaving next month...........i had really hoped to re-unite with my daughter that's here, but she keeps telling my mom she's not ready to see me..............i feel like she's just blowing me off and hoping that i go away quietly...................i had hoped that we could all come together and get mom's house put together, so they have actual rooms to sit in and visit with people, but that's not going to happen............so, i'm trying to fight depression right now...........as it is, i don't go anywhere, i stay in this fucking room all the time and i can't take it, but there's nowhere to go and no one i really want to talk to, except for erin.............i can't wait to go back home and go to work................this whole situation just makes me feel, physically, ill........sick to my stomach...........